Thinking?

Well I was probably looking for a bit of therapy, although I know it’s a bad word when connected to making ‘Art” oh well… Thing is you never really stop thinking do ya? It’s the kinds of thoughts... So I've cracked on with the chain mail, my mind has been travelling forward, leaving some disappointment with my proposal for the show. There is always a level of expectation, which can be destructive when making something – I hate that.

I think I’ve been getting confused… or maybe I need to clarify further between these ideas of unstable structure and anti structure. At the end of last year (and perhaps this was more related to an emotional state) vulnerability seemed to be a prevailing property of the unstable structure - it seemed brittle and fractured. I can only put this down initially to working with solid materials, and my relationship to a sculptural tradition, which has always been rather tense.

The soft fluid structures in my drawings however are an elastic entity, essentially the original blob idea, which introduced itself to me back in 2004. Surely this elastic structure must have more strength?

Studio floor this week

Continuing to read Zygmunt Bauman (‘Liquid Modernity’ this time) has left me feeling ambivalent. He makes me feel embarrassed for being an ‘identity seeker’ since he puts it as an unsatisfying quest; everything is fluid; everything is moving the search never ends, goals are never achieved. As I’m writing this I’m thinking of a huge expanse of water and a shipwreck, its contents carried away by the current. You can imagine the rest...